shellfishhhh

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 02:04:23 GMT

this isn't me.

Thu, 22 Nov 2007 04:43:38 GMT

whispering.
hear the ghosts in the moonlight.
sorrow doing a new dance through their bone,
through their skin.

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 02:04:20 GMT

i feel like i'm gonna mess it all up.

Tue, 04 Sep 2007 04:39:44 GMT

i like my job.
promotion in october.
school is nice.
good classes, good teachers.
i'm happy.

really happy.
:]

life is good.

Tue, 26 Jun 2007 05:12:08 GMT

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might know my heart

Sun, 24 Jun 2007 03:10:02 GMT

i cant like you.
i cant.

help it..........

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 18:41:34 GMT

unbelievable.
un-fucking-believable.

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 06:29:40 GMT

i got the job at jamba!
so happy!

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 17:59:38 GMT

yesterday. longest day...
woke up, showered did all that stuff. cleaned the house a little and started my research paper. (boo) then sarah came over and we made leis for saturday so we can get some suck up points. haah. then i went to my interview at jamba and the guy that did my second interview was SO CUTE. i was kind of in love. then as im driving home my car is acting funny and its like really hard to brake and the water light was flashing so i pull into the rite aid on blossom hill and it just dies. so i called my dad and then call sam cause hi, verizon free calls! yeah. and i get to see that whore today! so my dad comes and we jump it and it took forever to get it going, then we drove a little and it died, so we had to jump it again, then it died closer to our house and then we jumped it and made it home.
the end.

then we went to my cousins graduation party.
ridiculous.

and i woke up at 6:30 this morning..

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 02:33:48 GMT

i will soon perform surgery on my babies. :[ they are so dead, its ridiculous and they will soon be a mess of super glue. whatever, i will love them and their deformities no matter what. i am making a vow RIGHT NOW to never eat weinershintzel again. i feel like shit and my stomach seriously hates me so much for putting that in it. oh, and to top if off i think my ovaries are going to explode. today was fun though. minus the part where i was very unsuccessful and did not get new sunnies or when i almost crashed into jamie's dad's car.

i want to go to new york so bad. right now. im ready!!

my tummy :[

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 02:10:24 GMT

life is so...

Tue, 05 Jun 2007 23:05:21 GMT

I'm kind of sad that I can't go see Ingrid Michaelson tonight. I have this whole summer to see amazing artists, so hopefully I'll get the chance to. I want to go to the beach.

I started my summer school class yesterday. At first I thought there was too much work, but once I just dove into it I realized that it really isn't that much. It's easy once you get into the swing of things. Someone was knocking on my door 5 minutes ago, but I don't answer shit when I'm home alone. So...it shall remain a mystery.

Rehearsal soon. I kind of feel bad for Paris...

Fri, 01 Jun 2007 17:47:49 GMT

So, my grades are all posted, 3 B's, 2 C's. pretty okay. whatever, no complaints here.

yesterday was a really good day. i hung out in my room, read until like 3:00 and david and carlo are calling me and bugging me telling me to come get them so we can go to sarahs. so i go to get gas and get carlo and the cast list came up early so i like race to carlos and we look and are so happy. i'm one of the Teddy Bears, its like one of many featured parts in the show. and we get david and meet sarah at chipotle. eat delicious burritos. go to cmt and get yelled at by kankles mcgee and go work in the set shop. then, i came up with the most BRILLIANT idea/theme for my summer games team and its going to be amazing and i am quite excited about it. its GREY'S. DUH. and yeah.

i am really excited for tonight and tomorrow and this entire summer and this show.

i can't wait!!

Wed, 30 May 2007 22:42:18 GMT

i have a plan:
-take 6 units of summer classes this summer
-take the 15 units i plan on taking in the fall
-take another 15 next spring and i will be ready to transfer to Marymount Manhattan.

so basically in one year i will be getting ready to move to New York and start my life in my favorite city ever. i have a plan. i have a goal. i need to get away, i need to do this. i have something to look forward to. it makes me so happy and excited.

i've already started filling out my application. i am so excited!

Thu, 24 May 2007 22:27:18 GMT

dance callbacks tonight.

dance.
DANCE.

SERIOUSLY??

Wed, 23 May 2007 06:40:31 GMT

so i feel confident about my audition.

thats a first.

Sat, 19 May 2007 06:53:34 GMT

this is it.

finals week.

monday-humanities, voice
wednesday-math, history
thursday-english

auditions tuesday.

it came so quickly.
wawaweewa..

million miles away

Mon, 14 May 2007 03:55:28 GMT

i cleaned my room. it looks amazing.

next week=finals
next week=summer!!!

i cannot wait. i also have auditions next week. excitng. i saw cats yesterday with sachi and it was...something else. i felt like i was in a cult meeting because there was chanting and cats crawling everywhere. it was weird. cool, but just weird. and i also didnt know what the fuck was going on the entire time because there are cats dancing around and then chanting and then lights and then intermission. weird man, weird.
but it was cute.

i have to finish homework and study for my humanities final that i will fail tomorrow!

woop!

Wed, 09 May 2007 00:48:14 GMT

so i found out bobby draminski died yesterday morning. its so strange to me because it doesnt feel real. someone i went to school with died. i dont know what else to say. he was a really nice guy and i talked to him occasionally in mrs. brinks class. the last time i saw him was on senior cut day when he cooked for all of us and at grad night.

just thinking about it gives me chills, its not fair.
i cant grasp the fact that he is dead. its so weird.

its just a reminder that life is short and anything can happen at anytime. so sad.

rest in peace bobby.

Sun, 06 May 2007 04:32:44 GMT

so im sitting in my room, watching bill maher with a margarita to my right. im celebrating cinco de mayo with myself, i even have the party lights on. cheers to being middle-aged.

i went to the deanza flea market today, my mom decided to be a fucking bitch to me the entire time for no reason at all;

1. i kept moving from the crazy old people with carts and she would stop walking and i would hit her and she decided to get all pissy.
2. she grabbed the back of my neck as we were talking and walking for no reason and was squeezing so, i TOUCHED hers and she flipped a bitch.
3. she was bitching at me the entire time.

so as we were walking to the last aisle, and i absolutely hate to call this karma but, she tripped and fell and bruised her hand really bad and cut her knee open. and what did she do? bitched out my dad because apparently he stopped in front of her and it was HIS fault that SHE tripped and fell. yeah, not very likely. so she was a fucking bitch the rest of the way and during the walk to our car. as we were approaching the car i was talking to her and she starts to put her finger in the back of my pants and i asked her, "what are you doing?" and she starts screaming at me "I WAS FALLING AGAIN! FUCK YOU MICHELLE!" and i was just like "okay..." and she stormed off to the car. i dont mean to be a bitch and talk shit about my own mother, but she was not falling and yelled at me for being a bitch and yelling at her when we got in the car but im pretty sure she was the one who yelled at me.
THEN (this story is not quite over), we got in the car and she starts going off on me and my dad about how he tripped her and about how im a bitch and apparently and i quote, "shit on her" because i asked her a fucking question. oh and then she turned the water works on. my mom seriously pissed me off today. im sorry she fell and im sorry she hurt herself, but seriously if she wasnt being such a bitch to me maybe she wouldnt have fallen. she yelled at me and my dad for something that was an ACCIDENT, something that you cant control. now she is in her room, milking her fall for everything she's got. i sound like such a bitch, but the things she said to me hurt me. she degrated me and made me sound like i treat her like she is garbage and just thinking about the words that came from her mouth brings tears to my eyes. i just cant believe her.

so now i sit in my room watching bill maher, drinking my margarita with tears streaming down my face.

i dont want it to be today anymore.

Thu, 03 May 2007 23:03:45 GMT

i adore flavor of love girls charm school, i love new york and all the other shit television shows that have ever been created. they are ridiculous and i love every second of them!!

gosh.

two weeks. two weeks. so excited!!

ellen time. peace out!

Wed, 02 May 2007 15:12:00 GMT

my sister had her baby monday morning. he is super cute and super small and was two weeks early.
right now they're keeping him in an incubator because he is pre-mature and because he had something called wet lung so they had a tube in him drying his lungs out, but they are now dry. the only obstacle he has to get over now is his jaundice that he has.

he's so cute, even with his hairy back.
<3

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 04:09:05 GMT

three more weeks!
school is coming to an end hella fast! im really excited. i still need a freaking job. i finished reading lovely bones yesterday, it was an excellent book. it makes me feel all weird and nervous about shit though. but yeah. it took me like a week, im kind of happy about that. i want to do this thing were i read a new book every two weeks. i want a book club. cuteness!

i'm in love with andy samberg...gosh!

fall apart today

Sat, 28 Apr 2007 04:56:51 GMT

i don't want us to fall apart today or ever
you're the one who said youd never leave.
theres no good reason to giving up,
all this mess is just bad luck.
so, please dont lose your confidence in me.

i wish i wasn't so fragile, cause i know that i'm not easy to handle.
baby please, don't forget you love me,
don't forget you love me today.
oh my baby please, don't forget you love me,
don't forget you love me today.

i don't wanna feel like this,
but i'm so tired of missing you.
and i don't wanna beg for your time,
i want you mine all mine.

i wish i wasnt so fragile cause i know that i'm not easy to handle.
baby please, don't forget you love me
don't forget you love me today
oh my baby please don't forget you love me,
don't forget you love me today.

i bet you smile when you think of me
you love me messy in the morning, records on my knees
oh baby please...

oh my baby please don't forget you love me,
don't forget you love me today.
oh my baby please don't forget you love me,
don't forget you love me today.

oh baby, sweet baby.
oh my baby, sweet baby...
don't forget you love me.

stand back

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 02:04:21 GMT

17 days until summer.

i am thrilled.

i want some fro-yo..
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